I think it's 'bout time
That I warned you I might cry in front of you
And I don't want you to feel
Like I'm afraid of the truth
I didn't want you to feel
Like it was all your fault
But that doesn't mean
That I wanted you to feel nothing at all

What do you want me to say
When I can't tell you the truth?
Please, tell me how the fuck
I'm supposed to deal with losing you

So what's the point of talking
If you're not changing your mind?
It just reminds me of the lying
And it's wasting my time
So was it worth it to me
To wait around and then see
If all my love was well spent
My night-time hikes and weekends
You are my best friend
And I don't want this to end

What do you want me to say
When I can't tell you the truth?
Please tell me how the fuck
I'm supposed to deal with losing you

What do you want me to say
When I can't tell you the truth?
Please tell me how the fuck
I'm supposed to deal with losing you

It wasn't worth it to me
To wait around and then see
All of my love go unspent
My night-time hikes and weekends
You were my best friend
I didn't want it to end

I'm getting kind of tired of all the empty picture frames
Still feels like I'm not quite moved in yet

I'm getting kind of tired of facing all my fears
One time, it's hard to believe that I'll be fine one day

I don't get too far before I waver off
Take as much as I can before I get caught

I'm getting so tired of coughing out my lungs
And sticking out my tongue to catch the breath you stole the day you
Told me this was love and healed me with your hugs
And made me feel this might just not be doomed to fail so hard

I don't get too far before I waver off
Take as much as I can before I get caught
I'm not scared of dying, I'm just overwhelmed
I love you more than I've ever loved myself

I don't expect anything, can't get my hopes up too far
Don't text me just to pick up, call just to cut me off
I'm not scared of dying
I'm just overwhelmed
I love you more than I've ever loved myself

And it makes me kind of glad that you think
About me late at night when you can't sleep
And I'm sorry that you're sad, but I can't do anything for you
Anymore

Why you gotta be so fuckin' mean?
Said it's not your scene, could you just leave me
Alone with my friends, alone with my thoughts?
But I often have thoughts that can't be shared and
If you really cared about my health, about my heart
Then you would start keeping track of all the times
You said that you were fine but really weren't
It's just like back in time, when you were five
The doctor said you would be fine
But it still hurt, and I'm still sure
It was just a little trick to make us feel alright

Now I smell like smoke and I feel like shit
Probably couldn't hurt if I took a dip
Maybe then I'll finally be as clean as I was back at 18

'Cause I'm not getting any younger
My lungs get blacker every day
If I were to grow a beard, stop drinking beer
I fear you might not love me
Enough to make you stay
I really hope you'll stay

I know I said that it's not your problem
I know I said that it's not your care
This is a problem that can't get fixed with three drunk texts and one wet kiss
I know I said that it's not your problem
I know I said that it's not your care
This is a problem that can't get fixed with three drunk texts and one wet kiss

'Cause I'm not getting any younger
My lungs get blacker every day
If I were to grow a beard, stop drinking beer
I fear you might not love me
Enough to make you stay
To make you stay
To make you stay
To make you stay
To make you stay

Sorry, it's just, people are complaining (Too bad)
You know, they want to know if you guys can maybe try tuning up again? Or- (No!)
...play on beat and just do it right? (No!) All right
Let's stop foolin' around
And turn this band into a lean, mean
Mom Jeans revenge machine (Yeah!)
Mom Jeans!

What do you want me to say
It's never going away
'Cause I'm stuck on you
Like the smell of cigarettes on your flower dress

I want you under my fingernails
I want you in my sleep and in my dreams
I wake up spooning my pillow
Sweaty hands but please don't tell your friends

Now I'm addicted to cigarettes
At first I didn't let myself inhale
But smoke got through and so did you
And now every burn hole smells like home

And I know it's killing me
But that still won't stop me
'Cause now we smell the same
But you still kill me faster

I don't mind that you lie sometimes
Because I lie too guess I'm just like you
I don't mind that you lie sometimes
Because I lie too guess I'm just like you

I don't mind that you lie sometimes
Because I lie too guess I'm just like you
I don't mind that you lie sometimes
Because I lie too guess I'm just like you

I don't mind
That you lie sometimes
Because Iie too
Guess i'm just like you

Baby I'm sorry
Things didn't work out the way that I planned
But we both know that planning's not my strong suit
I'm sad that I lost you but I won't chase you
I still don't blame you for making me stall
When I learned how to drive you car
Because your best friends were all too sad to take you to the airport

But I miss you
Every minute of every day
Tell me, why can't you
Still make a decision 'cause I'm getting better at
Crying without making any noise
All I want is your voice in my head
And your hair in my bed

Please tell me why I'm so afraid of dying alone
So scared and so stoned
But I don't know what I need
So just tell me what you need
You're all I need
Just please don't make me

I'm getting so tired of the inside of my bedroom
Force myself to go outside and get some light
Wear a t-shirt that's not black
Get myself into the shower stay inside there for an hour
Barely get back home on time I'm just fine

I'm always double parked my car won't start you ripped my heart out
And it's hurting so bad
But that's alright I'll be fine if this bleeding won't subside
'Cause it keeps me warm

'Cause it's so hard
To change your clothes
Every morning

So lend me your ears I'll keep you safe
As long as you let me

'Cause I'm so sad
Whenever you're not here

'Cause I need you
More than you need me

I found no humor in your laughter
It stole my breath and took real effort
To get out of my head and out my lungs
I love you so hard it hurts me sometimes

I'm looking back on all of these old notifications
But what to they say about me
What do they say about me now

I'm sorry that I'm not exactly what you expected from me
Expected from me

I'm usually not this bad at saying that I'm sorry
But I'm not sorry
Even though you think that I should be
That I should be

I know it's not exactly what you're looking for
But that doesn't mean that you can disregard
All of the things that you told me before

I think back to all the times I kissed your hands
And how I can't stand the touch of any other hands
You tell me I should quit, well I think you should sit
Right there and think about how your words make me feel

Take me back to water breaks and burning insides
Way back when we got high for the very first time
I try so hard not to show how much I like this
'Cause I feel happy again

So take me back
I'll wait

I know it seems like I'm wasting my time away
On things that still don't matter
I don't care who can shotgun faster
But when the goat runs dry what's left behind
Is someone I don't mind I'm dying with

It's hard for me to see exactly where the hell I went wrong
I never thought I'd see the day we wouldn't get along
You think I smoke too much, I think your friends all suck
Can't figure out the reason why our parents fight so much
But I've given up on luck

But I'm happy here
I'm happy here

So leave my sweater on the porch
I'll leave your bag under the stairs
Don't go back to our old place
It's probably locked up anyway
I bet it still looks the same as when I ran away that day
It doesn't matter anyway

'Cause I'm happy here
Yes, I'm happy here
I'm happy here
I'm happy here

I sleep well alone now
I sleep well alone now
I sleep well alone now
I sleep well alone now
I sleep well alone now
I sleep well alone now
I sleep well alone now
I sleep well alone now

Is it so much to ask that you text me back
I'm so scared of losing touch I'm forced to ask if you know that
The reason why I try so hard to be nice
Is so no one else will leave me behind
You're right that it's not that hard to tell the ones that you love
How much they mean and how you'd feel if it was them and not us
But I can make the time in my life to be sad every time you're around me

How did it make you feel to know you're not quite enough
For someone who took so much from you and then just gave up
On the things that used to make me so glad I was the one holding your hand
'Cause I'm not too busy I'm just still dizzy trying to
Catch my fucking breath through these sweat-soaked sheets
But you're still so pretty and I'm still too skinny to hold
All this weight on my own

Bum badum badum
Bum badum badum
Bum badum badum
Bum badum badum

But I find the time to tell everyone I love
That someday I won't need them anymore but that's because
They've given me everything I need to be me
You let me be me

I'm not going back to my bed before I find a way to tire myself out
It seems that everything tires me out except trying to get some rest